IN A HEARTBEAT

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These four walls have been my sole companions throughout this year. Of course, we've had many interesting interactions and personal conversations. Sometimes I'd laugh at their silence and other times they'd mock my insignificance. Today is the day we celebrate a year of this special bond and I am truly touched. Never have I ever thought that I'd find someone who hangs onto my words like cement. I'm impressed.

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According to these peculiar men in white coats, a fever has possessed me. If the symptoms of a fever would include teary eyes, desolation, and often torment then, yes. I have a fever. I'm not sure if this story had always been tedious or is now shaping itself in line with my reserved fate. Now that I dip my head on the pillow and face forward, I realize how special I am. My friend(s) has always listened to everything I've got to say. From my favorite boy band to this solitude, they have been patiently listening and now is the time when they speak. I have had so many instances with the world, but these four walls is where I chose to be.

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Every place I'd find them, they presented something new to me. From love to hatred, my friends had taught and showed me everything, but these four friends have taught me something even my parents failed to. Peace. Maybe that's a reason to why they are my best friends; they gave me something no one else did. This room was alive with darkness and nightmares, these walls- they echoed and groaned.

Beep-Beep

I now hear a voice welcoming me to the other side. Maybe once I leave these white walls I'll be well acquainted with the villains that live in my head. My mom enters the room:

"Spencer, you're going to be fine".

Evidently, I am. I am not suffering a "fever" nor am I talking to these white walls. I never cry myself to sleep at night or think about Conan. I never have my chin down and I never gave up. Oh, everything is fine.

this was the quiet before the crazy, I sensed it. A long beep acknowledged me before the white walls became black.

Beep.